Hey hey long time no read eh? Well lets see where did I leave off… like 3 months ago… ummms I’ve been meaning to post new things, but haven’t been able to because of various things. Well after the last post, I went to Chicago and it was great, my oldest sister got married, I saw my other two sisters my parents my brother and my beautiful fiancée, it was a very nice wedding and I had a great time, heh my fiancée got a little… ummm drunk… heh and she made me dance (I cannot dance…) and she tried to make me spin her, and she turned funny and she was wearing heels so gravity did its thing and she ended up on her butt… and people kept coming up to me and were like “oh my you got her drunk!” which wasn’t the case I was in the wedding and she was drinking (be it very little, she’s an extreme light weight, like one beer light weight (don’t kill me baby for saying that… but you know its true :-p love you  )) so when I wasn’t doing anything I went over to her and she was, though we continued to drink together (I have never been drunk, never drank enough to get me more than tipsy) and it was fun, and we danced, like all the time, which was fun even though I cannot dance, and people then started coming up to us asking when we were getting married and the wedding planner came up to me and gave me her card and stuffs, so it was a very nice feeling that everyone could see how much in love we were. Yeah, I love her so much. Well then after that I tried to take leave after labor day but they were being punks about it and told me like 20 minutes before the labor day 96 (4 day weekend) that my leave was denied, and I was like ummm why? And they were like well your being deployed, and I was like when, and they were like next month, and I was like ummm what does that have to do with my leave, and they were like you have to go though CRC which is combat training so I had to do it, so that 96 Lindsay drove up to North Carolina from Florida (a ten and a half hour drive! Although she did it before, which I don’t like her doing… but… yeah) and she came up with my roommates fiancée as well (they live in the same subdivision) but I was sad because I couldn’t tell her my leave was denied and I had to tell her it was and why… which was I was being deployed… so… but she came and came over to my room when she got on base, and she was so cute, her and my roommates girl got dressed up so they could see us, and Lindsay was in a school girl outfit, and I just grabbed her and kissed her, and didn’t let go for like 10 minutes, and then I had to tell her… and she was sad but we made the most of the weekend, and it was a great weekend, but then again any time I spend with Lindsay is great. Then after the weekend I finally got leave set up (CRC was rescheduled the fallowing week, then the hurricane went through and we had to make up days) so I had leave from my fiancée’s birthday (Sept. 23) till the 28th which was again great, though she went to boot camp the 27th so it was depressing having to say good bye. We did so many things that week, ummms heh I got her a panda teddy bear that had a tux and a more animally panda (she likes pandas, her dad would call her Lin Lin Panda), ummms we went to a Goth industrial club called I-Bar, and she gothed me up, and I was wearing black fatigue pants, black combat boots, a fishnet long sleeve shirt, a belt collar, a spike collar, black lipstick (which came from kissing her :-p she is so cute, did I say that already) and ummms she made me dance (much different dancing there then slow dancing at a wedding) it was fun, although I didn’t dance a lot, I watched her dance most of the night (I was like wow she is so sexy) heh when we were leaving at like 3 in the morning, she looked at me and was like who were you looking at when I was dancing and I told her I was looking at her, and she was like oh… there was this girl hitting on you, and I was like huh? Really? And she was like yeah the one with these rag doll pigtails, I remember people when I just glance at them most of the time, and I knew who she was talking about because the first time I went to I-Bar with Lindsay and a few friends she was there also, and I saw her there that night, and Lindsay was dancing near her and with her (kind of, it looked like they were) so she got jealous a little. Heh ummms Lindsay taught me how to drive (yes I am 19 and I didn’t know how to drive… properly…) so we drove around and such. Ummms after Babers (my little pet name for her, she calls me rue, and she said she was going to be calling me coffee bean, because I make her hyper) ummms after she left to go to boot camp I was sad and I started looking though all my stuff, and found letters I got when I was in boot camp, and I found hers, and it was just amazing to me, that was before we were together, and she said things in the letter that made me feel like why didn’t I go after her sooner, but all and all no regrets because I’m happy with how things are now, that she’s my fiancée and were getting married, and I’m just, ummms I cannot even think of a word if there is one that would convey how excited and happy I am, but then I started writing her a letter and she called on her cell phone, and we talked for hours before she actually left MEPS (you go to a place called MEPS, I cannot remember what it stands for, before you go to boot camp, they do a physical and have you swear in, and at that moment your military.) so right now she is in boot camp, she’s scheduled to graduate on my birthday (Dec. 9) I got a few letters from her sense she’s been at basic. she’s kind of depressed at the moment, at first she was doing good, her drill sergeants told her she was the most motivated one and was talking about making her guide, which is good, sense you can get promoted for that, but then she hurt her ankle, possibly a stress fracture, if hats the case, then she might be dropped (pulled back in training), so she’s depressed about that now… but I have faith she can do this, I just hope she keeps faith. Well, after that week, I got back to Lejeune, and I got ready to deploy, and I did, almost a month ago, actual it is a month ago, so now I’m having fun in the sun and playing in the sand (if you don’t get what I’m saying, I’m in Iraq right now) but yeah I’ve just been me out here, its ok, I’m not going on any patrols or convoys, my MOS (more or less a job) keeps me on base so no combat action for me, and I’m not in such a bad place, it seems almost like how it does on base back in the states, but ah wells, I’m thankful its not worse, because I know some have it much worse then I do and it kind of makes me guilty that I don’t… which reminds me I was reading this thing on letters from troops that are over here and just randomness, and one letter kind of got me angry, it was this letter from this troop (don’t want to say the branch, don’t want to sound like I’m classifying all from that branch as a whiny bitch (pardon my French it just really bothered me)) that was complaining how he doesn’t have chocolate syrup for his ice cream over here because it runs out, and the letter right next to his was this other troop telling how he spent his thanksgiving, he was on a detail that was to ID corpses, and separated them (and find what peaces belong to which one on some cases) and on thanksgiving him and the other troops went like 300 ft away from the bodies and had a pretty standard thanksgiving (food wise and saying what there thankful for). It just bothers me that some can complain about something so small when others have it hundreds of times worse, in situations that most cant handle mentally. Well anyways all and all I’m doing good out here its slow going at times, but yeah ill deal, I cant wait till I get back state side, not saying I just want to go back right now, hell I could do this for the rest of my contract, but I cannot wait till I’m going back at the end of this deployment because I could see my fiancée and we can get married then, and ill have some more money because of this deployment so we can go house hunting and such. heh I cannot wait till I see her beautiful face, to be able to kiss her. Heh well this is very much longer than I planed to write but maybe I should update this a bit more (including pictures, I also drew another of my fiancée but I need to find a way to get it scanned and uploaded out here). Well I’m going to end this now, hope all that read this are sleeping well and dreaming well.